Big Deal
My observance and witnessing of Christian behavior is what has kept me out of the church. Over and over I witnessed a disconnect with what was being preached, and how people were actually living. This hypocrisy I have witnessed on a large scale in every facet of society I have mingled with. I had to observe the hypocrisy in myself. It all seems to come back around to good/evil, light/dark, the duality of the what we are and of all that is capable. If I am capable of loving to this degree, I am capable of hating. Our inner ugliness is in the collective. We are bringing it all to the light. I've been struggling with my anxiety an intense amount this morning. Eddie is sick and we are going in to the vet in a couple of hours. I have a call in to see if I can have my TMS appointment earlier. I need to clear off my desk to get a grip on what is this anxiety is. On the surface, yea, I am about to perform in front of 60 people a night this weekend. I have minimized this, much as I have