The Presence

 I woke up thinking about a presence that was in my dream last night. He seemed to be familiar and he was a teacher or authoritarian in some way. I was trying to give up in my dreams and he was angry and disappointed, telling me to get back up. In my dream I was frustrated. I woke up thinking I am ready to see the videos. As I was combing Angel's hair for the day, I thought, what videos? 

This man seemed to be an amalgamation of all the men in my family tree I have been researching. I was back in a school. It definitely felt more military than other schools I have dreamt of. If I had to pick a favorite, it was the school where I was learning to sculpt angels. This school was hard, and I wanted to give up. He had got me the base for a sign, like a yard sign I was to create. In my dream I connected with my fear. The man was telling me, "I have shown you who you are."

While researching my father's side of my family tree, I found there were many military men. There were also many Bishops. I was searching for the "Irish" genes. I found several "Indian" ancestors. It didn't occur to me prior to this about the lack of record keeping with certain people, and the meticulous record keeping of others. I traced the pioneers settling from Virginia to Arkansas, and the people being pushed toward Oklahoma. I followed census reports, marriage records and other documents to boat landings and boardings. The ships all seemed to sail from England. Record keeping was kept up in England back to the late 1400s. Before that, they get scarce. Wars, plaques, and lack of ability makes it difficult to search records in the 1400s and prior. I found the Irish line and have documented it in The Grandfathers section I am working on in tracing my family tree. 

While drilling deeper and deeper into history archives, I noticed some repeating occurrences. These occurrences were with the marrying of a Chief and an aristocrat's daughter. The first time it connected, it made sense. The second time it happened, it was a coincidence. The third, I paused and thought, emerging pattern? Then I thought about reincarnation and thought, why would our spirit dwell in a different DNA body? Would reincarnation happen cellularly? Is reincarnation just cellular memories from our epigenetic? So, I asked AI. My mind started trying to connect more dots. 

Working through all of these thoughts and ideas brought me here to this discussion. What is this presence around us? In us? I will be posting my research on my website.