The Authentic

 The natural progression of question came to me by questioning what the "missing link" was. When I think back on my non agreement of anything that didn't feel naturally true to me, religion and Darwin became the same. Things that didn't make sense to me, I was ridiculed for asking about. Why did apes evolve with hair to protect them from the elements, yet all we have is thin skin? Why does it burn in the sunlight? Why did tear and bruise so easily, like a fish skin? I was called ignorant and stupid for asking questions like this. I still have these same ignorant and stupid questions. Pulling on this string begins to unravel the ugly sweater. 

I have had strange dreams of crocheting with Putin. We knit by the fireside, talking about all sorts of things. I am not engaged in politics, politicians detoured me from politics. I grew up with the Cold War. I still don't even fully understand what that is. I don't understand how people can just push other people off lands, claim it, then tax people to live on it. I am shut down real quick when I ask those kinds of questions. So I pull on the string more. The history we are taught in school isn't the same history we know today. Paradigms are sliding, like land over roads and towns we built during a flood. I have also had dreams where I was flying over cities covered in water. It is a clear water I can see straight through. I can see cars on the roads, people in the cars. These must be of the future, because they can't be of the past, right? The unravelling can't be stopped now, half the sweater is gone. 

The pyramids being built when they were never made sense to me. I think back on why this was, because I didn't accept the teaching at school, naturally. But, I was stupid and shouldn't ask ridiculous questions. My earliest memories were viewing the pyramids through glossy books at seven wonders around the world. I used to be enamored with the seven wonders. I loved the mystery that was there, openly acknowledging it is a mystery, therefore needs to be explored. I started asking AI chat all my stupid questions. 

When I sit and contemplate things and observe, I am led to obvious questions. Why these questions seem stupid to others perplexes me. Is it my ignorance? I am trying to learn so I observe and question. Why would hairy apes evolve into hairless humans, only then to kill animals to put fur back on their bodies? Naturally, when observing how species evolves, this perplexes me. Still being given feedback by AI Chat, it's not connecting in my brain how a species decides that loosing all its hair to adapt to the climate, only to have recover themselves to adapt to the climate makes sense to me. What am I missing here? And all this happened in how many years? 

Here is what AI had to say: The transition from having a full coat of hair to using furs and other materials for clothing is a result of multiple evolutionary pressures. Thermoregulation, parasite avoidance, social and sexual selection, and cultural advancements all played roles in this significant aspect of human evolution. This combination of biological and cultural factors enabled humans to become one of the most adaptable species on the planet, capable of thriving in a wide range of environments.

I am living through the advancement of technologies, and questioning how it came into existence. Is the rapid advancements in technology similar to the shift from hairy, hairless, fashion industry? Why would civilizations begin building with gigantic blocks they could barely move, to creating small manageable rocks and creating clay bricks? It is the disconnects in these questions that all add up to asking what is going on here? Why does any of this matter? Am I using this to detour me from obligations and work? What is work? 

The persistence of these questions sent me yesterday to purchase an additional Enneagram evaluation. It did line up with previous ones and the psychological evaluation I had a few years ago. The Researcher. I used it in combination with AI chat is focus in on what my strengths were and the path I am best suited for. Turns out, I am doing it. I am being authentic to myself, regardless of who wants to accept it or not. I know who I am. Other issues I have had has not been with me not following who I am, it has been with others wanting me to be something else. I feel tremendously good about my authenticity. And this is another sign for me that being true to myself eases the strife around me and helps me stay in faith. 

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