Lion's Gate

 I love the changing of Seasons. I also love this time of year, the end of summer. As a child, I remembered the last days at the lake. The August heat baked the pine needles and created an aroma that is unforgettable. The smell of grills, food cooking, and coconut oils are beautiful reminders. The lakes were so  clear when I was growing up. I remember digging my feet into the sand, searching for little shells and rocks. The soft waves would lap up against my legs and I was called to the corners away from all the crowds. The setting sun brought a coolness that whispered from the wooded pine forests. The first star would appear and I felt so connected. Yesterday, while paying homage to the All, I worked mentally to ushering in the creative energy of this Season and the height of Lion's Gate. 

I had previously pulled out the tapestry of my life and started pulling on threads. I picked apart seams, created tears in the fabric and pulled ribbons apart. I started categorizing the patches by color and size. I had to start at the beginning, as much as I could. Consistently tackling the answers to Why? Exploring, observing, accepting. All these beautiful swatches of life laid before me. I was astonished. 

I have experienced a great deal in this lifetime. I was mesmerized by all the beautiful patterns and colors. I had been able to incorporate some beautiful aspects out of all these experiences. I am able to look at the areas where I continue to resolve and integrate. I have lots of beautiful pieces here with many ways to piece them together and create something larger and more beautiful. I just hadn't decided on what I wanted to create from all this. 

I have a closet and dressers filled with beautiful clothes, shoes and accessories. I rarely wear them, except when I "have to" go out to appointments or for shows. I don't wear them around the house because I would stain them within an hour. I also have so many supplies at hand, that I could entertain myself for quite a while. I have books, and tons of research topics I can get lost in. I have my kitchen, back door to open to the nature, and area to think in. I have my cats, my plants and beautiful people in my life. I am supported by my boyfriend whom loves me deeply. I have socks to change by the hour if I choose. And at night, I have a comfy safe blanket to nestle in to drift off to dream. I have been sleeping well. I feel in this moment, the best mentally and emotionally, that I ever have. My physical is a major work in progress. 

I possess ALL the things. How did I want to start creating my new quilt of experiences? I've been very methodical about it. I organized the pieces and began repairing the rips and tears. I'm washing the fabrics and thinking about them individually. I am thinking about the thread colors. I am creating with intent. It has become very important to maintain my focus to become aware in every moment. Staying present in my thoughts, while allowing myself to creatively dream, trying to not rely on one or the other really. Balancing the two so that I can tap into that deeper self. What makes up these layers? It has been beautiful to explore.