Low Vibrations

 I have felt a shift in my energy levels today. I took one of my last pills for my ADHD. The pharmacy and manufacturers are now running low on this medicine. I decided to "take it as a sign" and stop taking it. It made sense on every level. If I physically was not able to take the med and use it consistently, then perhaps I shouldn't take it. Perhaps I can return to treating it naturally. I stopped taking the med. I started dragging ass. I kind of checked out and had such low energy. I could feel myself being pulled. So, I was determined that today I make a change. Pushing myself to get out and take videos, I needed some added help. So I took one of three left. 

What I noticed was an instant difference. I started creating, opening avenues of exploration and experienced another energetic shift. Was it the medicine? Is it a solar storm? Is it the electricity in the atmosphere? Down the rabbits holes I went. All the while debating the use of this medicine. I see a noticeable difference. Could I step down? No, but I could up. So I made the call, extending the option of increase. I could still choose not to take it, if it proves to be too much for my system. I worked over this rationing in my head for a bit. Time slipped by.

I had been busy all morning on a new phone wand to use for video. My last few did not make the cut. I assembled a new one this morning and was eager to get out and test it. I couldn't deny the outpouring of inspiration this morning. What was the source? Why just one? What is it that is working today and wasn't yesterday? It was the ADHD medicine. Internal battle started raging regarding pharmaceuticals and my energy. What gauge could I trust? Only mine. 

While deeply engaged in creating my new magic wand, I started feeling a low vibratory buzzing. Buzz.. buzz.... buzzz... Was it my phone? No. I kept feeling it, this low vibrational buzzing. Ugh, it was creating this internal scrambling of chaotic feelings. I realized it was coming from the "meditation video" I had playing in the background. It almost sounded as if when the sound was recorded, someone's phone was going off, over and over. I really tuned it. It was a low level gong/bell. It was generating negative emotion by triggering my "missing a phone call" fear. Was this intentional? Regardless, it had to go. It was not relaxing me at all. It made me worry about what I am listening to while I sleep. 

My vibrational door kicked wide open this morning. I opened the way for energy and was greeted by a low vibration. I was so sickened I had to remove the voicemail from my phone. The yawning, mmm disinterest, or lack of ADHD med also. I get it, I felt it. That stubborn stagnant energy. I didn't feel inspired at this point. I had felt a drop in my energy and I attracted more of it. My ears were ringing from my blood pressure going up. How did I get in this space after being in such an inspired space of creating. It was a bit of a hard fall, but I did notice the harmonic changes and frequencies. My entire state of being was shifted from a high vibrational state, to a lower one, from tuning into the outside sound that was generating this annoyance. Bzzz... Bzzzz.... Bzzzz.... I can feel the chaotic energy in each buzz. 

This soundbyte has been programmed in us to generate emotion. Reaction. Attention. The buzzing phone. I felt it so clearly now because I had turned my phone off. I could feel the energy immediately. What is this reflecting to me? I gotta go raise my vibration.