Baby Nola (my youngest grand-daughter) is in the ER tonight, she is being hospitalized. They are not sure what is wrong yet. The stress and anxiety from that has all our blood pressure raised this evening. But, something my daughter and I started thinking and talking about on her drive to the is hospital is something we keep saying. We all say it, we constantly talk about how bad 2020 is. And we keep affirming it, over and over. We all keep saying it over and over. Memes say it, we laugh, but deep down we have to laugh to get us through. It was like an aha! moment. The whole world is affirming daily, hourly, how bad it is. We really need to make a conscious shift, to be more grateful. We can easily begin to affirm great changes that will be made. We are in the midst of a great shift.
We need a united effort of gratitude. So I am going to begin doing this daily. Being grateful and trying to continue to bring beauty into the world. Listing the things I am grateful for. Whether I scribble them down, or create something to give thanks. I will verbally affirm it. I am so grateful for my life. Everyone in it, even the ones I had to sever chords with. They taught me something and I grew. We had our time in the sun and our passing through each other's lives meant something to me. And even though I haven't reached out much to people lately, you have been on my mind and in my heart. I have just needed some time to work through some pretty heavy issues. I am grateful I have pulled through them, because, believe me when I say, they almost took me down. But, they didn't. And I am grateful.
I am very grateful for so many things in my life. I am beyond grateful for all the talents I have been blessed with. I am grateful for my home, animals, It's Always Sunny, Schitt's Creek, cannabis, wine, rice pudding and breathing.
Right now, I am sitting in my bed, using my nebulizer. Allergies are currently pretty bad and honestly, there are moments I feel like I am breathing glass. But, right now, I am still breathing and grateful. I am grateful I have a nebulizer.
Nola has an IV in her baby arm, but she is in good care. I am grateful she has a wonderful mother. I am grateful for my beautiful daughter and her parents.
Yes, my business has dropped by 70% and my royalties have dwindled to nothing. But, it is still there and still, there is opportunity to be had. New things to learn and work towards.
Above all, I am grateful for all the self growth and healing I have received this year. I am absolutely a changed person. I feel healed of so many things and will continue on that journey.
I am going to make a conscious effort that every time I want to say "2020 has been horrible" to stop and be thankful for what it has brought me. I think globally if we all did this, it might help raise this vibration. Just my thoughts for this evening as I try not to worry, and sit in gratitude and love.